='( yesterday was a over mood day !!i feel so miserable and terrible
it was a fine and happy day yesterday !!but it was turn out to be horrible to me !!
first ...
today was the day when all our(dancer) hard work paid !!
we went to united square's veinna !! a high class one !!
to have lunch together !! our teacher and insuctor came along too !
haha !! over there was so fun, so yummy, so full !!it was a whole great monday afternoon !!
i was really happy at that tym but !! when i decide to find my boyfriend i ps my friends...
cos i think i could share the whole afternoon fairly ...half for my friends and half for him ...
so i took a long cab there ... and when i reached there...
he told me he dun feel lyk meeting me ... and i was disappoint by him !! so angry ....
and i walk striaght to the busstop...i ignore and scream at him fiercly !!
after a while ... he was gone ...and i only can contiue walking to the busstop...
i swing my bag back and forth miserblerly when suddenly i drop my phone ...
and when i pick it up... i saw 2 msgs..it was him ... he was scolding me in those msgs!!
i was damn horrible i wanted to cry but i sorrow it all down !!
my legs are painful my heart too !! i was thinking and thinking when i was walking ....
and fall down ugly ... all those passe-by laugh at me !! and i feel even more worst !!
when i got my way up ... my tears row over my cheeks !! i wan crying badly to the bustop !!
at the busstop.. i contiue crying !! i jus can't stop it !!
and just lyk tat i have oso made my way home ...
then crying on my bed !!
& there i was;
2:42 AM
why mus happiness be found in me ?
after good happiness
and soon there will be sadness happening around
why cant life jus be a simple !!
phew ... i m tired of life...
i am wondering ... when will my life end ?
=( i m turly tired of life !!
& there i was;
4:08 AM
hais ... today it may be anothr sian sian der day lor !!!!
sian !! actually this morning when i was in my bed ...
i ave thought wat i going to do today ler !! haha ...
well... i m going to have tution from 9-10.30 then
i make a ph0ne call to student mart to to ask their opening hours ...
then if the time is okay with ...i will go find friend to come out with me =)
then after i will go to suntace city to get a dictionary for my english !!
then after that i will go to hougang mall's sasa to get facial mask
then jiu go then i jiu happy ler cos i at keaset when out today !! haha ...
hais i wondering who can come out with me today man !!
& there i was;
5:52 PM
hais !!
why cant he just listen to me !!
and change for me !!
the changes he ade was horrible !!
today i m damn suprise to know that..
he has got another police report !!
good !!
i guess he cant study anymore in that school liao !!
waste so much afford of mine to pursude him to change!!
to no avail man !! wat F things is this ?! phew !
i m really tired and angry now ?
wat can i do to him anymore !!
i always thinks that he is not yet that ''hopeless''
but !! i have done all my best !!
to tell him to change ler !! he just wont listen !!
oh !! GOD !! tell me wat to do with him man !!
as angry as i m ...
the feeling faded away ...
i dun noe wat to do !
feel lyk ending here with him !
='(
& there i was;
2:02 AM
hais ... yesterday his an ass !!
i will never go and find him !!!!!
not even a call to him !!
i can't do anything else to him !!
he can't change anymore !!
i quarrelled with him yesterday !
say until lyk i m v evil !
i m trying to brian wash him man !!
he can't be awake !!
wondering wat paper he would pass up today
hais ... i have say all that i can say ...
scold all that i can scold ...
he is still like that !!
if he is not then one that i loved
you think i will care bout him !?
hais ... all lyk that !!
this morning i wle up with a fever !!
but no ones noes !! hais ...
my art today . i dun even have a mood to do !!
all rubbish i dun even noe wat i painting ...
art lei !! hais forget it ...
i guess i m composing in this world man !! =((
& there i was;
8:59 PM
haha ... the post just now can't see at all lor haha ....
phew ... today o8/o5 ler !! hais ...
last year der today i m the happiest girl in the world man !!
today der last year we sitted on the stair (happily) =D
haha all thoe are my past ~
today in this year i thought i might be more happy that i have gone last year!
but i wasn't after all =\ he spending lesser and lesser time on me =(
phew ... i think to me there are nothing call foever only once have it
why ? sometimes i ask myself !!when or where then can i get my ture happiness ?
maybe some other time ba !! i think i m just too young !! =\
i wan to grow up earlier!! =D haha ...
& there i was;
11:14 PM
haha ... the post just now can't see at all lor haha ....
phew ... today o8/o5 ler !! hais ...
last year der today i m the happiest girl in the world man !!
today der last year we sitted on the stair (happily) =D
haha all thoe are my past ~
today in this year i thought i might be more happy that i have gone last year!
but i wasn't after all =\ he spending lesser and lesser time on me =(
phew ... i think to me there are nothing call foever only once have it
why ? sometimes i ask myself !!when or where then can i get my ture happiness ?
maybe some other time ba !! i think i m just too young !! =\
i wan to grow up earlier!! =D haha ...
& there i was;
11:14 PM
haha ... the post just now can't see at all lor haha ....
phew ... today o8/o5 ler !! hais ...
last year der today i m the happiest girl in the world man !!
today der last year we sitted on the stair (happily) =D
haha all thoe are my past ~
today in this year i thought i might be more happy that i have gone last year!
but i wasn't after all =\ he spending lesser and lesser time on me =(
phew ... i think to me there are nothing call foever only once have it
why ? sometimes i ask myself !!when or where then can i get my ture happiness ?
maybe some other time ba !! i think i m just too young !! =\
i wan to grow up earlier!! =D haha ...
& there i was;
11:14 PM
phew !! all those important papers are over !!
left with art and listening !! relaxing papers !! =X
hope to today he don't pass up blank paper !! =.=
todays maths paper were quite taf !! lols ...
test were all sec 1's sums !! i didn't revise !!!
lols.. mr soh always lyk tat der lor =.=!!
always like to test us the question that we never noe !!
hais anyway ... over ler complain so much oso no use !!
hope everything goes alright for the ret of the day ... =))
haha ..bye !!
& there i was;
8:26 PM
